From There to Here

Today is July 06, 2012.  In four days I will be having my frozen embryo transfer...YAY!!  I'm very excited!  This is our first frozen embryo transfer.  We will be transferring a single embryo. Let me just give you a little history  of what has brought us to this place.  In May 2008, I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS), a condition that does not allow me to ovulate or have periods on my own.  So, at this point of being diagnosed, my OBGYN at the time had already informed that I and my husband, fiancee at this time, would need help getting pregnant when we were ready to start a family.  At that time, I was like okay we'll need a little help getting pregnant....no big deal!  A year prior to this I got a DVT in my left leg, and Pulmonary Embolism in my lungs.  I had to bee hospitalized immediately.  Within months I was diagnosed with Antiphospholipid Antibody Syndrome (APAS), a high blood clotting disorder.  I was told that I would have to be on Coumidan indefinitely.  So, in May 2011 my husband and I decided that we were ready to have a family.  I immediately scheduled an appointment with the Reproductive Endocrinologist.  She assessed and evaluated me, and had me do a HSG, procedure to ensure that your tubes are open and clear. The HSG report came back good.  My tubes were clear and open.  This was good news for me!  My husband also had a semen analysis conducted, and it was found that he was all good!  Therefore, we proceeded with the IUI procedure as this was the least expensive procedure to do when trying to conceive with the help of a Fertility Specialist.  Our first IUI was done in June 2011 and it was unsuccessful.  We got a BFN.  However, our second IUI in July 2011 we got a BFP.  We were so excited. Then, things started to take a turn for the worst.  Our betas were low, and I began to bleed.  My doctor suspected that it was an ectopic pregnancy, and sure enough it was.  After getting this heart breaking news, I was given methotrexate.  We were so disappointed, and devastated.  But, my loving, supportive husband helped me through that trying time. We had to take a break to allow my body to heal, and to ensure that the methotrexate was out of my system before we tried again in December 2011.   By December 2011, this was our third IUI and it lead to a BFN.  We still remained hopeful and did our final and last IUI #4 in January 2012.  This IUI gave us a BFP.  Although, it felt as if history was repeating itself as my betas were again low, but rising.  Therefore, I began to pray and ask God for his will to be done through my pregnancy, and to give me peace for what may lie ahead.  Needless to say, this pregnancy again was ectopic.  This time I had to have Emergency Surgery a day before Valentine's day. I was so scared, but knew that God would protect me.  My husband rushed to the hospital from work and was there by my side. Finally, after two ectopic pregnancies, my RE explained that we should move on to IVF. We did our first IVF cycle in May 2012.  They were able to retrieve 20 eggs and all 20 fertilized.  We put in two, but it was unsuccessful at that time. At that point, I was angry, frustrated, confused, disappointed... the list of emotions can go on and on. Nonetheless, we didn't give up hope and are now about to do a frozen embryo transfer on July 10, 2012.  I am really excited and remain hopeful, and faithful to God for our predestined one that he has for us!